BEFORE CHRISTMAS

Well here comes Christmas again ! Another year is almost complete and soon people will be swearing to diets , quitting an assortment of addictions , and swearing to whatever strikes their fancy why put off until January 1st , what you can ABSOLUTELY start today ? for a New Years resolution . I prefer to look back and see if I am satisfied with all I have accomplished. This year has been up and down for me .
Emotionally speaking this has been a fairly easy year , but physically speaking it has been fairly brutal I am worn out , tired , exhausted , overworked , and just tired in general . I am getting tired of riding the bike everyday to work it is getting cold again and I don't have the energy this year that I had last year . I have been physically ill several times this year , my mammogram came back with something on it in August but nothing serious as of yet . I am going back for a checkup next month so they can have another look at the node they spotted.
I am essentially between a rock and a hard place right now .I have several decisions weighing down on me that have taken up far too much of my precious energy and I need to make some solid decisions and stick firmly to them .
I was knocked off my ass this week with a rotten cold that has pushed me behind on Christmas shopping , I am halfway there and I intend to be done by the weekend . My younger brother and family are flying in from England this week and we will be meeting up in the city next week for a family gathering and sightseeing expedition . Christmas is only 11 days away and I am finally excited !! I got some really cool gifts for the boys this year , I didn't get them much but they will be very pleased with the few well chosen gifts they will receive . I am more grateful for the people in my life this year then the material things , I have some really wonderful close girlfriends that have made this year so special . I have reinfoirced current friendships and I have had an old friend come back in to shine in my life in an extrodinary way .
I have a romance on the horizon , yes finally met someone whom is soo much like me personality wise he is just a breath of fresh air in my life it is very new and exciting , and it has only just begun . I haven't been involved in quite a while now and I feel like I am ready to take that step forward into the unknown so no holds barred , throw caution to the wind romance is looming large at me and I just have to let go and accept it ..