CHRISTMAS EVE / CHRISTMAS DAY 2006

WELL HERE IT IS AGAIN ! VERY EXCITING , I LOVE CHRISTMAS SOOO MUCH I GET REALLY EXCITED THO I AM ACHING FOR MY BOYS , MY KIDS ARE WAKING UP AT THERE DAD'S HOUSE TOMORROW AND I MISS THEM TERRIBLY . I DON'T THINK I CAN EVER GET USED TO THIS ARRANGEMENT .IT IS SO HARD NOT HAVING THEM HERE AND DOING THE WHOLE COOKIES , MILK , AND CARROTS THING FOR SANTA AND HIS REINDEER . JUST WAKING UP TO THEIR SQUEALS OF DELIGHT AND THE TEARING OF WRAPPING PAPER AND THEIR OOHS AND AHHS .
I SPENT WAY TOO MUCH MONEY THIS YEAR , I ALWAYS SAY I AM GOING TO LIMIT MYSELF TO A CERTAIN AMOUNT AND I START OUT REALLY GOOD BUT THEN I GET STRUCK BY THIS BUG CALLED THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT SHOPPING BUG AND I END UP SPENDING MORE THAN I HAD INTENDED . THIS YEAR I MADE EXCELLENT MONEY THAT I WORKED REALLY , REALLY HARD FOR . I ALSO MANAGED TO SAVE QUITE A BIT AS WELL , I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN A SAVER .
IF I WAS DRIVING EVERY EXTRA DOLLAR WOULD BE GOING TO INSURANCE , GAS AND INTERLOCK SO AS HARD AS IT IS RIDING MY BIKE WHEN IT'S COLD I WILL TOUGH IT OUT UNTIL THE FALL OF 2008 . THAT IS WHEN I CAN GET A LICENSE WITH NO CONDITIONS ON IT , I AM WILLING TO BRAVE IT OUT FOR ANOTHER 21 MONTHS . MY KIDS GET PICKED UP IN THE MORNING AND DROPPED OFF IN THE AFTERNOON SOO IT HAS GOTTEN ALOT EASIER FOR THEM . MY CO WORKERS HAVE BEEN GREAT ON THE WEEKENDS AND DURING ANY BAD WEATHER I ALWAYS GET A RIDE BACK AND FORTH .
I AM GOING TO BE BABYSITTING FOR A 16 MONTH OLD GIRL ON MONDAYS FROM LIKE 4 - 9 . I AM HELPING OUT A CO WORKER AND I WILL PROBABLY DO THIS FOR THE NEXT COUPLE OF YEARS FOR HER . MY BOYS ARE SO EXCITED THEY ARE REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO HER COMING HERE . THEY HAVE ALREADY PLAYED WITH HER AND THEY WERE WONDERFUL AND SO PROTECTIVE OF HER . MY GUYS ARE REALLY GROWING UP SO FAST RIGHT BEFORE MY VERY EYES . THEY BOTH HAVE SUCH WONDERFUL HEARTS . I CANT WAIT TO SEE THEM TOMORROW AND WATCH THEM OPEN THERE GIFTS .
THIS HAS BEEN A VERY QUIET CHRISTMAS EVE FOR ME , LAST YEAR WAS AN EMOTIONALLY WRENCHING HOLIDAY FOR ME BUT I HAVE PUT THAT BEHIND ME AND LEARNED FROM IT . TOMORROW WILL BE TOTAL MADNESS AT MY FAMILY'S HOUSE AND I REALLY LOOK FORWARD TO IT . I AM NOT BRINGING MY NEW GUY AROUND YET WE JUST MET RECENTLY AND IT IS WAY TOO SOON FOR THAT , I MADE THAT MISTAKE LAST YEAR AND I WILL CERTAINLY NOT BE REPEATING IT AGAIN . I AM GOING OFF TO DO MY HO HO HO AND I WISH EVERYONE A VERY CHRISTIAN MERRY CHRISTMAS !

BEFORE CHRISTMAS

Well here comes Christmas again ! Another year is almost complete and soon people will be swearing to diets , quitting an assortment of addictions , and swearing to whatever strikes their fancy why put off until January 1st , what you can ABSOLUTELY start today ? for a New Years resolution . I prefer to look back and see if I am satisfied with all I have accomplished. This year has been up and down for me .
Emotionally speaking this has been a fairly easy year , but physically speaking it has been fairly brutal I am worn out , tired , exhausted , overworked , and just tired in general . I am getting tired of riding the bike everyday to work it is getting cold again and I don't have the energy this year that I had last year . I have been physically ill several times this year , my mammogram came back with something on it in August but nothing serious as of yet . I am going back for a checkup next month so they can have another look at the node they spotted.
I am essentially between a rock and a hard place right now .I have several decisions weighing down on me that have taken up far too much of my precious energy and I need to make some solid decisions and stick firmly to them .
I was knocked off my ass this week with a rotten cold that has pushed me behind on Christmas shopping , I am halfway there and I intend to be done by the weekend . My younger brother and family are flying in from England this week and we will be meeting up in the city next week for a family gathering and sightseeing expedition . Christmas is only 11 days away and I am finally excited !! I got some really cool gifts for the boys this year , I didn't get them much but they will be very pleased with the few well chosen gifts they will receive . I am more grateful for the people in my life this year then the material things , I have some really wonderful close girlfriends that have made this year so special . I have reinfoirced current friendships and I have had an old friend come back in to shine in my life in an extrodinary way .
I have a romance on the horizon , yes finally met someone whom is soo much like me personality wise he is just a breath of fresh air in my life it is very new and exciting , and it has only just begun . I haven't been involved in quite a while now and I feel like I am ready to take that step forward into the unknown so no holds barred , throw caution to the wind romance is looming large at me and I just have to let go and accept it ..