EXCITEMENT IS CONTAGIOUS

Wow it is almost 2010!!! Cant believe how time has flown.
Here I am back on Blogger after a long absence, Boys are 12 and 10 and what a handsome young man Anthony has become, Patrick still has that young cute look but Anthony is a HOTTIE he has had numerous girls chasing him and he has had numerous girlfriends.
I am nearing the end of college I will be graduating in Feb and be receiving my Associates degree in Business Administration/ Medical Coding& Billing.
Was dating MK until around April/May then boom he found out he was getting laid off and then his divorce became final and he just pulled away from me completely and I was patient for a long time but he just couldn't deal having a relationship with me. Him and I are friends just saw him yesterday for lunch with Tom.
I am Dating PC now and I have doubts , he is like the perfect man to fall into my lap he is available and he wants to spend every free moment he has with me!! He is only 6 months sober, he has issues ( dont we all?) but he is a little jealous and I feel smothered at times. He is getting back on his feet , he doesn't really pay child support and I feel that is why I have disrespect for him. He was telling me he loves me after a week, that rang warning bells in my head. I care for him very much but I am not in love with him and don't know that I ever will be, I know I am over analyzing again sometimes I just cant help myself. I am definitely in lust with him though.

I still have feelings for Mark and don't know what to do about that. I thought about it and I would go back to Mark in a heartbeat if he wanted. He is still battling with unemployment and depression. Don't really know what I am going to do about this situationIm utterly confused right now. I don't want PC to get hurt I am going to have to put this one in God's hands and hand it over to him to take care of. The answer will come to me eventually, I will just pray that I make the right decision for myself.