WHERE I STOOD

MY LIFE IS WHAT IT IS I WISH I COULD GRAB CONTROL AND MAKE IT ALL PERFECT . I KNOW THAT'S UNREALISTIC BUT ONE CAN ONLY HOPE . I HAVE BEEN GETTING CAUGHT UP IN ONLINE DRAMA AND I AM JUST READY TO DELETE EVERYONE AND GET OFF THESE SITES .
I HAVE ALSO BECOME OVERLY ADDICTED TO THE INTERNET AND MYSPACE GAMES I CANT SEEM TO GET ENOUGH ! IT HAS TAKEN CON TROL .
I AM ALSO VERY MUCH IN LIKE WITH SOMEONE BUT WE DON'T GET TO SPEND ENOUGH TIME TOGETHER AND IT IS REALLY HARD , I AM CRAVING THAT CLOSENESS AND HUMAN CONTACT A LITTLE MORE OFTEN AND HE IS JUST TOO TIRED HE WORKS 2 JOBS AND HE LIVES A GOOD 45 MINUTES AWAY SOOO BETWEEN MY JOB AND THE KIDS IT'S ROUGH . I REALLY REALLY WANT TO HANG IN THERE AND STAY LOYAL AND NOT DATE OTHERS BUT I AM ALMOST AT THE POINT WHERE I AM READY TO JUMP BACK IN THE GAME AGAIN . MAYBE FIND SOMEONE A LITTLE CLOSER . I AM TRYING SO HARD NOT TO OVER ANALYZE EVERYTHING AND JUST PUT IT IN GOD'S HANDS BUT I HAVE BEEN DOING THAT FOR A COUPLE OF MONTHS NOW AND I AM BECOMING A LITTLE FRUSTRATED.
MAYBE I NEED TO LOOK INSIDE MYSELF AND ADDRESS MY CURRENT NEEDINESS .