THANKSGIVING

HERE IS ANOTHER YEAR THANKSGIVING IS HERE AND IT CAME FAST AND JUST IMAGINE CHRISTMAS IS 6 WEEKS AWAY.
I AM FEELING DOWN AND DEPRESSED TODAY , WHICH IS A DANGEROUS THING FOR AN ALCOHOLIC . I CANT HELP FEELING THIS WAY I HAD AN AWESOME NIGHT LAST NIGHT AND WHEN I GOT HOME TODAY I SLOWLY BEGAN TO FEEL ALONE AND EMPTY I KINDA KNOW WHY I HAVE SEVERAL THINGS BOTHERING ME AND WITH THE BOYS BEING GONE AND MY DAD AND AUNT NOT HERE YOU THROW ALL THAT INTO THE MIX AND YOU COME UP WITH SADNESS AND DEPRESSION . I AM A FIGHTER AND I AM FIGHTING IT WITH EVERYTHING IV'E GOT AND I KNOW WHEN I GO TO MY FAMILY'S LATER I WILL CHEER UP BUT UNTIL I CLEAR THE AIR THIS FEELING WILL NEVER LEAVE ME . I AM AN EXTREMELY AFFECTIONATE TOUCHY FEELY TYPE OF PERSON AND I AM ALSO VERY INTENSE IN CERTAIN SITUATIONS AND WHEN THAT IS NOT RECIPROCATED OR EVEN NOTICED IT LEAVES ME DOWN AND EMPTY , I ALWAYS SAID I WOULDN'T SETTLE AND I HAVEN'T YET ONLY TIME WILL TELL , IF I FEEL LIKE I AM THEN I WILL DO WHAT I GOTTA DO TO LIVE HEALTHILY FOR MY OWN SAKE . I HAVE MY OWN ISSUES AND ALOT OF THIS HAS TO DO WITH MY ISSUES AND THINGS I NEED TO WORK OUT IN MY OWN HEAD . HOPEFULLY I WILL FIGURE IT OUT SOON .
I NEED TO WRITE MY YEARLY THINGS I AM THANKFUL/GRATEFUL FOR LIST JUST TO KEEP IT REAL

1. MY SOBRIETY
2.MY CHILDREN & THEIR GOOD HEALTH
3. MY HEALTH
4. A ROOF OVER MY HEAD
5. JOB
6. FAMILY
7. FRIENDS
8. SPITRITUALITY
9. GOING BACK TO SCHOOL
10. RONNY

SO THERE GOES MY YEARLY LIST AND IT PRETTY MUCH REMAINS THE SAME EXCEPT FOR ONE OR TWO OF THEM .
I WISH EVERYONE A BLESSED THANKSGIVING .
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