SPRING IS IN THE AIR

It has been an incredibly wonderful week weather wise . Can't wait till it gets even warmer !
Doing the soccer thing again , so we have all been out there getting plenty of much needed exercise. , I got very lazy this winter and I need to get back in shape now , another month and I will be where I want to be .
I had a fallout with my friend K last week , I probably shouldn't of even hung out with him , I took him with me to my sisters house for St Patrick's Day , with the understanding that we are only friends and we were exploring where it could possibly go , no fooling around of any kind . We had fun and when he dropped me off we kissed goodnight , I let it happen and I take as much responsibility for it as him .
A few nights later he brought a movie over and my boys and I watched it with him . ( Ghostrider ) Great movie BTW . At the end of the night we kissed again and hugged and that was it !
Two days later he texts me that he was feeling better and wanted to know if we could fool around , Just like that ; fool around . I got pissed off and told him that it would forever be a dream for him . I told him to go find another horse to ride . I am not happy the way it went down but I am happy that it did go down because I was completely honest with him and made it very clear that I had no interest in him . I knew right then and there that I had finally had an answer to what I had been mulling over for a couple of weeks. One of my girlfriend's who had met him told me that I would be a fool to let him go , he's a nice guy etc etc......
I couldn't be with someone just because he came across as a nice guy to other people I was physically not attracted to him he has a belly that looks like he is carrying twins in there and that is such a turnoff to me . He had no interest in getting himself in shape and No way am I going to settle , I am glad I stuck to my guns I have known all along that he wasn't the one .
On to bigger and better things . I am interested in a couple of guys but I am certainly in no hurry to seriously pursue anything . Well there is this one who completely unnerves me every time he looks at me I start shaking and I get sweaty . No man has had that effect on me in a long time and it shakes me up a little , I am not sure I am ready for him , I mean I have this gut feeling about this man and I am scared to take the next step and go out with him . I guess trust issues and fear of being hurt are what stop me but I am swinging towards him and I think by next week I will be feeling lucky .