Hate on Valentimes Day

I received an email from an ex on Tuesday and he wanted to know if I still hated him ? I emailed him back that I never hated him, only that I was dissappointed in the way he had handled things , he should of been straight with me . The man pretty much didn't have any balls when we split up he avoided me and backed away from me like a coward . Instead of just being honest and straight forward he played head games with me . I have shyed away from relationships and entanglements since then and not because of him but because of how I feel inside and how I feel about men in general . Men are men need I say more ? I don't have the energy to deal with any of them I have too much else going on .
I go on dates occasionally and I am cool with that , my kids benefit because I don't bring a new guy around every six months or so . No attachments and noone gets hurt . It works well for everyone and if I happen to fall in love with someone in the future then it will happen when it is meant to .
I had been struggling with my sobriety up until two weeks ago . I stopped going to meetings and got way too comfortable in my sobriety . Old behaviors started kicking up and I was thankfully able to see what had been happening and got myself back into the rooms again . I am speaking this coming Monday and it has been a while since I have spoken . I am nervous but I know it is going to be okay . It is exactly what I need right now .I have hit that 18 month mark of being sober so it's perfect timing .
My house fixing up is going well . My blinds in my living room were just installed today and they look awesome I went with wooden blinds and they blend in perfectly . I also redid my bedroom it looks great, a new comforter set makes a huge difference . Next is the boys room I am giving them new blinds and new comforter sets , as well as new dressers .
My family is good and I miss my little brother but I am planning a two week trip to England for the boys and me for March of 2008 . Yes I am planning way in advance because I want to spend two days in Paris ( they are only two hours by train from France ) and I want to do this trip right , I may even do two days in Ireland . I haven't decided yet but I am excited planning it .
I am waiting to hear from Nassau Boces with a date for my GED test . I took a pre test and passed it with flying colors . I am still going to school to keep up my math but only once a week now . I still haven't decided which direction I am going to go with school after I get my diploma . I have been thinking hard about that and thought about going for something in the medical field
It's just the where , when , what , and how that I don't know about .
I will end this blog on a happy note , I started off writing about a man who's email really did nothing more then annoy me just a little bit . I wish him well in all his endeavors . I am happy , healthy and I love my life the way it is .